Loving

Orion has been getting better at being comfortable around us.  He loves to sleep on our pillows and snuggle with me.  He is definitely a momma's cat.  When we snuggle he looks up at me, closes his eyes and nuzzles my nose.  It is so cute.  He is such a lovable cat and shows his love with nuzzles and from time to time he gives kisses.  Makes me wonder how anyone could 1) give him up, 2) hurt him however way they hurt him to make him terrified of people.  But he is getting past that and comfortable enough to show his love.  He just needed the time to learn to trust us and see that we would not hurt him in any way and just give him love and attention the way he deserves.  We needed to show him we would not abandon him or anything like that.  Which of course got me thinking.

Often times we are hurt in the past for various different reasons and need that certain someone to love us back.  It takes time to trust someone again after you've been hurt. Its hard to look at another person and not wonder if they will hurt you or if you could trust them.  How could it be easy?  If only there was a way to turn off all emotions and go through life able to be unhurt and unfeeling, but that is not the case.  We need to take time to overcome our feelings of hurt and damage so to speak. But after time,when you love someone you should show it.  Why hide that you are in love with someone especially after being hurt so much?  I think we hide that we love someone after being hurt as a way of protecting ourselves.   We hiss and growl to keep them at bay, but once they push through the hiss//growl wall we enjoy their presence and begin to allow ourselves to be loved and love.

When we first got Orion he didn't want to be around us, he preferred the company of the other cats.  That is something I think we tend to do, surround ourselves with the people we not just feel comfortable with, but also feel connected with.  But as time wore on and we showed the kitten that he was loved and wouldn't be hurt he has begun to curl at my feet, nuzzle my nose with his and a variety of other things.  He still has his moments of hiss//growl wall, but it is breaking down.  We need to allow the people in our lives who love to break down that wall within ourselves and learn to allow someone else into our lives.  Otherwise we would be trapped alone and scared.